New Day

Your Callous words are a sharp reminder of my haunted painful past.
A past That I thought I escaped but now it’s facing me and I want to run.
Drunken words repeating again and again unable to stop like a Runaway train.
I’m drowning in post traumatic memories, Trying to find peace at last.

I thought you would keep me safe and now I am struggling to breathe.
You’ve snapped. I don’t Recognize the man in front of me and I’m petrified.
You said we weren’t compatible, words pouring acid on my heart.
I thought you were my forever but now it looks like you might leave.

I unintentionally disrespected your wishes, never meaning to hurt you.
They are my girls, my world and I’m used to being an island.
I struggle with control, because I grew up in a tornado.
Learning to share the burden won’t come easy, I’m a wounded soldier and that task is new.

Calming breaths I shall take to easy my broken heart.
My body begins to soften, I am able to focus again.
I will pray that the sobering dawn will help us see the light.
After all tomorrow is a new day, and I pray that we won’t fall apart.